Which came first, the infertility or the hermit life?
We no longer have any friends. Not locally anyway. So do people shy away from us because we don't have kids or do we shy away from people who have kids (aka the rest of the world).
Ten years ago we moved away from the big city into the country because we didn't want to raise our kids in that city. Little did we know we would have such a difficult time having kids. So here we are, in the country, in isolation.
Due to trying to adopt for the past two years, we were advised to not change jobs or move. In our state, you cannot be in the process of trying to adopt while having infertility treatment, so earlier this year when we started IVF again, we had to give up trying to adopt, which did free us up to move and change jobs, but of course the economy is preventing us from doing either.
So we've been in this holding pattern. And we are friendless. Humans are social animals. I need friends. I am at home on Saturday, it's after noon, and I'm blogging and watching a movie on Lifetime in my PJs. ACK! That's just not normal!
Everything has taken a backseat to infertility, the house, the yard, friends, us.
1 comment:
((Hugs)). I have to say that maybe I have a hermit life too if you compare to others but I kind of like my hermit life. Go crazy in your garden/yard, go crazy in the kitchen, go crazy with your hobbies. Infertility doesn't need to stop those. I know it stops the job moving and I know it creates tension in the friends area. I don't know how to get by those.
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